Wednesday, July 5, 2017

New beginnings

People always talk about New Beginnings when someone got married or started a family. I always thought because it's a new chapter in their life. Partly this is the case, but after my wedding and the arrival of my first baby, I know the in-depth meaning of New Beginnings. After every such milestone, you kinda start over. Not only financially since those milestones can cost you an arm and a leg, but mentally too. Maybe not so much with being married, since we've been with each other for ages. Practically we were marrried just wihout that piece of paper and the ring. Not that the wedding wasn't special, but a new edition to the family was a whole different level of special. It's like it's not about me or us as a couple anymore. Our main focus is the baby and all decisions made are considered what's best for the baby. I don't know if every mom experience the same thing, but in the coming blogs I will be writing about my pregnancy and motherhood. I hesitated if I needed to start a different blog, but this one is about loving life. We created one...so to my definition, it sure fits in here. So here goes my inner voice of the first moments of finding out....

"On september 22nd 2016 I found out I was pregnant. A fact that I had been hesitant to find out. A gift that I was not sure whether I would be good enough to accept. For years my life was always about me and then there was the husband and now,...it's all about a human being  that I've never known before, but who I'll according to everybody will love with all my heart. I was hesitant, but I was also realistic to know that it was not something I hate and it's something I'm also curious about. Women have been childbearers since forever, so what happens really that makes a woman even though knowing all the pain and tearing still choose this path for thing 2 and more."